I can’t wait to get out of Newcastle!
And no I’m not like every other person who says that they want to leave and then don’t. I have plans, arrangements so when the HSC is up, I’ll be spending as much time as I can with my parents and flown off to another state. I’m a bit too excited.
It’s not that Newcastle is a terrible place, if you want to visit here or move here, by all means, go ahead. I’m not anyone important or well known so there are probably plenty of people out there on whom I have not yet met but are probably amazing sincere people.
It’s just that I have lived her my whole life. Yes I am 17 years old. I left home at 16. I’m no saint. My life has been full of drama and at first I thought it was interesting. It’s a journey I’ve been through changing my values and attitudes. I do not expect sympathy from anyone although I do expect some sort of respect not to talk about my personal life. What goes on in my life will not benefit you in any way. Maybe in ‘popularity’ but since when does that exist?
I have lived here and known people in my micro world for too long and have run out of options but to leave. I am not letting other people win. I’m choosing the more appropriate option and fulfilling my desire to leave. I want to be able to explore new places. Meet people that my friends wouldn’t even know existed. Live how I be.
However I will miss my parents dearly. I have speaking about them in such I’ll terms I deserve to be shot. I was ungrateful and to an extent selfish. But I do know my family was not the most ordinary. I do realise I am not the only person that has personal issues.
I would like to say that I love you Mum and Dad. Thinking about you warms my heart an brings a tear to my eye because I know that I’m growing up. Something I wished to never do. You kept me living my life and I didn’t know that but now realizing all you have done for me. I cannot thank you enough. I wish to spend more time with you. I’ll make you proud mother and father.
As for my siblings, although you and I haven’t always gotten along and still have a distant relationship, you are family and also have a place in my heart.
If you’re reading this and have any bad thoughts in your head. Remember, you are only human. You may make mistakes in your life but if you didn’t, how would you learn? Please keep a good heart and respect those who give you respect. Do not try to impress others or give into peer pressure or the power of an older boy.
Also. Don’t say yolo and have sex. Tell me that shit and I’ll fucking hit you.
Goodnight beautiful people. X
